Day 5 - 16 February 2011

 This week the day started and ended like all the previous ones at the school...  busy.  Last week during the class one of the little girls had a problem painting in her eyes on her puppets head.  The task itself was very straightforward but there are always one or two in the class,  who do not believe they can do something.   I decided to show her how she could go about it,  by anchoring her little finger to the puppet and then having a sturdier hand to paint the difficult lumpy area.  The artist spotted me helping her and came over to ask me not to do it for her.  The purpose of the whole exercise she explained, was  for them to do it themselves.  I  totally understood what she meant and wondered,  if it was my place to try and show them little tips to make things easier for themselves or just to leave them at it.  On reflection this was not a skills workshop so I was not doing the right thing by  showing her how to do it.  I was quite taken aback at the time,  as I did not think it was that big a deal,  but I can see now, that  the aim of the project was to let them do it themselves.

In class this week on Friday, all the boat project people and the book transcript people seemed to be talking about their project and what was happening,  and how they were going to meet up and talk with the people in their group and it got me thinking that the project I chose, was probably not the most 'community based' experience I could have become involved with.  I chose it because I really enjoy working with kids, they are free of all the negativity  that adults usually have.   I had done loads of similar types of workshops like these before. But maybe that is not what this is all about.  Maybe it is about getting totally out of your comfort zone, getting in there for the dreaded 'group' experience.  Thrashing it out with others, who you don't see eye to eye with,  going home irritated and frustrated and reflecting on how you could 'do it better' next time.  This its seems is the way to learn.  Not just to have an experience but to be able to reflect on that experience.  

 My project somehow doesn't have the same input required as the others seem to have, although I am probably working quite hard (according to the artist).   Others  seem mainly to be taking photos of there experiences and recounting what was being discussed when they go there.  Although I really enjoy my project  every week,  I feel a bit guilty, as I feel like I should be learning some major  life- altering experience each week either about the people I am working with  or about the project, and I am not...and I am just doing it because I am enjoying the experience.   I tend to chose things that I know will give me the least amount of aggravation lately.  Why.. I don't know.  I dislike confrontation, I suppose, I try to avoid arguments if I can, because I just feel like life  is just too short to get into annoying situations that go on for years.  Anyhow now that that's been said,  I will carry on regardless,  because it is fun and I am enjoying the experience and I can't say that about alot of the other things that are going on in my life at the moment.

Day 4 - 9 February 2011

Well here they are....some of them anyway...still a work in progress. 

 Today was a really funny day.  I was a bit bored by all the election talk on the radio so I was delighted to get into the school today out of the rain.  The artist divided the group up so for the first 15 minutes the ones that had not attended last week got a chance to catch up again.  We had all 31 in today and the room was full.  There was wool and paint and the easter eggs from the other group on the floor and all sorts happening.  It was a hive of colourful activity.  The Echo photographer was in photographing the kids for the school photo too.

About half way through the class, one of the boys came to me and told me his friends puppet was leaking.  We had filled the plastic milk bottles with water initially to weigh them down and for some strange reason this particular bottle seemed to have a tiny pinhole in it near the bottom and his purple tissue paper top was wet.  After we had let the water out of it, his friend turned to him and said: 'Well..., her waters broke anyway!'  I was on the floor laughing because this kid was about 9 or 10.  He has obviously heard that somewhere before.  

 more dudes...

There was hair flying and eyelashes and eyebrows appearing on previously blank looking faces.  It was also quite funny to see some of the self conscious, giggling boys dancing around the table with a bra that had mistakenly found it's way into the fabric box.   There were all sorts of glittery scarves being pulled out of the rummaging box and the puppets where starting to look like little people now.   When she was showing the new lot how to mix colours, a good few of them wanted to use dark brown and one boy even asked if he could paint his face  black.  He eventually ended up with a very dark brown face and it looked great amongst all the other pale ones. Some also had freckles. I had mentioned to the artist that the question of what constitutes skin colour had come up on my blog.     One little girl decided she wanted to do one side pale and the other half brown.    I asked her why she wanted to do that and she replied that she wanted hers to be different to all the others.  I was amazed that even at that young age, they were already trying to distinguish their work from the others, by doing things which would probably be considered quite out of the ordinary in a normal (not art) context.  I thought that this was wonderful because it showed me, that they recognised that some things are different and that's ok too.  

I came home ready to give my video piece another crack... d day tomorrow for that.  

Julie and Julia

Well it's amazing what you hear when you talk to interesting people.  Frances my dear friend, saved my bacon in more ways than one last week.  With the eminant  deadline looming for the dreaded video project.. I had taken to the beach with my 'starlett... ange' in tow last week for another epic videoing experience... armed with a little black dress and a pair of binoculars... well to cut a long story short, it was 'dreadful'.  I kind of knew that really,  but had to magic up something after the trad fest weekend, so magic up I did, and this time, it backfired..badly.  Anyhow I got to talking to Frances in the car on the way up and she was telling me about men who like to wear womans shoes etc.. and then we got onto this movie,  Julie and Julia.   It had nothing to do with men or shoes..and it would not normally have appealed to me because it is about cooking.. I hate cooking.. eating I love.. but cooking... uuuugghhh..anyhow this movie is based on two true stories about a girl in (2002) who cooks up this famous American woman, who is living in France's, recipes in (1940's?) (Ha ha not cooking the woman!!!) The power of the wrong apostrophe... Too much Louise Bourgeois again... anyhow..she cooks one recipe a night for 365 days and blogs about it.  Well, I thought I could get a few blogging ideas.. so I watched it.  It was ok, Ms Meryl Streep starring..with a very annoying high pitched voice,  but interesting too, because they both got a movie made from their simple little story.  The younger one  was cooking some woman's recipes and wrote a blog about cooking them... do you see a pattern emerging here?  A singer writing a cooking blog... maybe instead of  community blogs I should start a blog about an artist???? who doesn't like to cook, blog... any publishers out there? Oh yes I forgot we don't need them anymore either... this is free for  the world to read and no cost involved.  

Day 3 - 2 Febuary 2011

Well today I headed up northwards and was amazed to see the election posters up already.  What struck me was that there was mostly Enda Kennys heads peering down on my car from every pole.  There were also a good few Labour posters around Wexford but the closer I got to my destination the more Sinn Fein ones started appearing.  I only noticed one in Ennicorthy of Michael Martin, on my way home.  I couldn't help  but think that maybe the printers refused to print for them. Else they are still asleep, or people are taking them down as fast as they are putting them up.

A locked  school gate today threw a spanner in the works.  It was raining and we had to carry some of the materials around the back of the school.  We heard there were only 15 out of 31 in today, so even though we started a bit late we seemed to get quite a bit done today with less in the class.  The kids got a lesson on how to create skin colour and to my amazement, the swatch  paint excercises we did in first year came in very handy.  I was quite accurate in re-mixing the colours for some of them.  They also painted in the features on the face today and the 'faces' took on  characters all of their own.  The hair was also added and when I packed up today, the place looked like 'Ibiza' with loads of suntanned faces, brightly coloured clothes and the coolest funkiest hair you have ever seen.  It made a stark contrast again to the grey skies outside.

We actually took a tea break today and I met some of the other teachers.  They were all having a relatively quiet day as there were so many out sick.  The school had got some stencil type games painted onto the tarmac outside for the kids to play on during their break, outside the staff tearoom.  The question of funding came up again and also some discussion took place about the date of the exhibition that was going to take place in the school.  When we got back to the class I was asked if I could help with the exhibition in May and was delighted because I really want to see them all finished.  Today many fell behind because they were not in last week and some had not come in for two weeks, so I spent my time helping those to catch up again.  I think that  the most frustrating thing for the artist who runs the project must be to try and work to the deadline for the exhibition as well as move the group along each week to the next stage. The dates are set at the begining of the project so there is little room for flexibility.  This artist is also working in a number of other schools so co-ordinating  and time management skills are of utmost importance as far as I can see.  The hall they will be exhibiting in in the school is huge and they have  fabulously high walls so getting it all in won't be a problem.  Our group are making the heads with i-pods or headphones and they will have radio waves linking them all together. They are 3D pieces and are going to be shown on the ground around the hall I think.    The other group are going to be dispalying flat work on the walls. We will have have one more week before the mid-term break.

I am finding because I am enjoying this part of the project, I am neglecting all the other subjects and am falling behind.  I have started to realise what I want to do,  and what I have no interest in doing too, and all this along with the necessity to make some money this year, because I do not qualify for any grant,  is starting to take it's toll on my home life.  I was asked to do some work in Temple Bar for the Trad Fest last weekend and although I did it, I realised that it took a big chunk of my time and had no time to do the project that was partly due for the Monday.  So trying to juggle time, and money, help other people and get my projects done,  is starting to exhaust me.  I am also finding that things that came quite naturally to me before, I really have to think about now.   I know I will do it, but I suppose I will welcome the break more than most this year.  I am always amazed at how effortlessly the rest of our group seems to glide through the year, seemingly with no worries about the volume of work to be done.  What am I doing wrong?